Fresh Start

I didnt even know I still had this blog, I wanted to re-start a fresh blog in order to keep down my thoughts. I'm sure I will probably stop again but for now, as of right right now I am dedicated to writing on this thing as much as I can.

Basically the whole point of me getting back into blogging is just to write down my thoughts, I can care less if anybody follows this blog or likes what I have to say but I as do many people in the world have many thoughts. I want a forum to put these thoughts down and remember them. I could of started a journal or written a book(one day) but for now I will resort to this blog in order to post my thoughts on life mostly but really anything that comes to mind.

I really believe people spend too much time worrying about other peoples thoughts and ideas. Always seeing what others have to say, or worrying about others opinions when it is your own that should come first.

Anyway I just hope to write down whatever comes to my mind and hopefully look back on this blog and say wow. I believe writing things down or sharing your thoughts can relieve a TON of stress or pressure on someone so thats what I hope to achieve, a clearing of the mind I suppose.

I choose not to create a tumblr or something like that because I believe tumblr is more social network, whereas this blog is more or a narrative or editorial of sorts that has less to do with interaction and more with just thoughts on everything and more of a private thing. That was a horrible explanation but hopefully whoever reads this gets the point.

That being said hopefully I continue to write on this and hopefully everyone is having a great Sunday. GOD Bless.

Certified Thinker

Thinking its what i do best.
Im a King at overthinking thigns, I can think for dayz.
Thing is I be thinkin about the stupedist things for thee longest time.
Idk why but every little thing gets me thinking, my mind races like krzy. Anything somebody says to me, I immediatly start to like anaylze it and try to find the meaning behind why they said that to me.

For whatever reason i always feel like ppl, not all ppl, but most ppl are tricking me. They prolly are not but im so dumb I just assume that theres more to what their saying. I get like all paranoid and it ends up consuming my entire day. Like what did they really mean by that, and it really takes away from my relationship with that person.

Its really a waste of time to think and worry about what ppl say about you, and why they said it and whatever. You cant change it, if you dont know what their sayin and they dnt tell you then dont sweat it. I mean i shouldnt sweat it.

Anyway i just wanted to just let that all out. Now ima sit back and think about what ppl are gonna say about this blog, and if they think this or that about me.

American Idiot

As of now I wanna to be addressed as "idiot" or "dumbass"
I seriously have to be the stupidest person ebbbbberrrrr.
I though I knew everything but i dont know jack

When you decide to do something THINK ABOUT IT!!!
think and think and think and think and think and then THINK AGAIN
cuz as much as you might think you have it all planned out... shit happens.

I wasnt prepared for any shit to happen other than the shit that comes out of my ass.
so now i'm stuck with a big dilemma. As much as this experience has been good 4me and i've
learned alot from it, I really wish i coulda been succesful.
& right now i dont think thats gonna be the case.

I've been lucky enough to talk to alot of different people about my current situation and
get a bunch of opinions on what i should do, for those who helped me thank you very much.
especially Adiam cuz without her i wouldnt be here and i wouldnt of had any perspective on
living on my own and what it really takes to do it.
I dont think i have it, and now i'm flat on face but i'll get through it cuz i got the best people
surrounding me.

This might be the end of YonzInFlag but i'm still Yonz so shiiiiiiiit
i can have like a YonzInPhx or YonzInBedroom or YonzIsMengis'sBitch
I'll be back whenever however.

and is their any better smell than gasoline OoOoOoOo Weeeeee i love it.
Soooooooo Whoooooooooop(not suuu wuuuup) dont get it twisted.